Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Agan


Again I found myself longing for the unknown

Again I wanted you more than I could stand it

Again the time passed at an excruciating rate the longer apart


Once again I tried to be cautious, afraid of being hurt

Once again I got to close to fast

Once again I got comfortable just as you stepped away.


Again a sense of regret and starting over overwhelm me

Again I know that I have gained and lost

Again I will go on.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


I can feel you

in the russell of the wind

I can hear you

now that I'm listen

I'll look for you,

in every shadow that I pass

and every new

taken photograph

Hunted by your memory

hunted by this feeling creeping over me

I can feel, you breath against my neck

I can hear you whisper in my ear

please don't leave

I wake up in the night

at the slightest sound

slowly turning corners

hoping you'll be found

lurking in the darkness

watching over me

protecting

scaring

hunting me

Hunted by your memory



Thursday, October 2, 2008

Beautiful Beginning


You kissed me once and stole my breath
You kissed me twice and stole my heart.
So bold and aggressive, I lost my nerve.
But you grab my up in your arms, and I am weightless.

Soft lips pressed firmly against my own
Is there nowhere we can go to be alone?
I am yours, take me, but be gentle
I cant risk being hurt again
Because your second my lover, firstly my friend

Secretly hoping this romance never ends
Promise me one thing, that you ll take it slow
I've never been down this road before
Don't know where its going
Don't know where it ends
For this love affair has just began.

When you touch me I quiver
The way you Ceres my skin, put my head in a spin
And I lose control
I don't want to let go.

Take me by the hand and guide me
Talk sweetly to me, and teach me
Run your hand through my hair and hold me
Surly getting bolder but slowly.

Not understanding the feelings I'm having
Its a passion I cant deny
With you I swear I can I fly
I'm so happily confused.

The night has fallen, morning light not far to come
I shall run away from the light, if only to prolong the night
For it means we must part for a new day is to start.

Kiss me goodbye, and Ill hold my breath
When you whisper in my ear "not yet"
Love affair grow wings and fly
Never to be slowed, stolen ,or stopped
Like my heart at your words
Our Beautiful Beginning.





Saturday, September 27, 2008

Hearts Dream


Half awake, half asleep. My memory slowly coming back to me from the night before.

Do you know me, I feel we've met. I know I've kissed this mouth before.

The look in your eyes makes my heart beat quicken.

There's a shutter in my soul.

I couldn't be wrong, How could I be mistaken.

It is my breath away from me you've taken.

A apart of me screams, No, this is wrong!

While my inner self whispers, Go for it, you want this. Nobody is watching.

I let go and go with it. Just a little shaken.

Yet, with you lips against mine I am beaming.

This must be a dream and I am sleeping.

When you pull away, I am wishing you had stayed.

But all at once I realize, this is the only way.

Now that we've parted I miss you. And want nothing more than to be with you.

So I'll close my eyes and dream my dream again. If only to feel I am near you.



Wednesday, August 6, 2008

My Friend Will




Monday, August 4th, making his way home.

With just enough to be to much to drink,

He hit a telephone pole.

Will didn't make it home that night,

and he never will.

I'm still crying for my friend, my friend who's name is Will

As soon as I heard that news, no one wants to hear.

As all my world came crashing down, it is the worst I fear.

I cried as I drove to my dear Friends home

to find his roommate and his Friends.

We held each other, for the longest time

Letting the sorrow begin.

Today (8-7-08)is Will's funeral, tho it will be sad

We've chosen to celebrate his life and the times we had

Instead of black, the colors worn will be bright and gay.

We know that he would have wanted to be remembered in this way.

Will's life was ALWAYS full of color, smiles and happy times

He will be missed deeply, his memory never left behind.

We Love You Will, we always have, forever in our hearts.

And know with every ending, comes a brand new start.

To Will's family and closest loved ones...

I am sorry for your loss

I know that you have suffered one of life's greatest cost.

I'll miss you William and I always will.

I know I will see you again one day

As much as it hurts to know your gone, in this sorrow I wont linger long

For today is your special day

Because we'll say goodbye for now, see ya and ttfn

To my dearest Will, to my dearest friend.


William









Sunday, August 3, 2008

Excited Zombie

In a town not to big but not that small, the moon no more than a red sliver in an inky black sky.

Havoc and chaos taking flight, claiming lives on this night.


A virus is spreading, molding and changing its host, hiding so well it isn't noticed by most.

Only with the passion of a racing heart, adrenaline pumping, palms sweating, eyes wild can it be seen.

The flesh turns grey, eyes wide and blood shot, with a crazy rage of erupting violence.

Only in THIS state can the infected be found. See for what they really are..



A black cat sits in his usual spot, looks normal enough, until its owner starts to taunt him with his favorite toy.

At first he purrs, playing his game, until his heart beats faster with anticipation of the pounce.

His owner doesn't notice that ever so slowly his silky black coat shows a new color, streaks of blood red wrap his body as his playfulness turns into the savage hunt of a wild beast.

Pore kitty's owner will not make it through the night..

A couple is walking down the street, pushing their stroller along.

They didn't see the shadow lurking in the ally. Watching them. Waiting.

They draw near, the shadow leaps, drawing blood at first bite. Claiming its victims.

Fist one than two, going for the third, the small one in the stroller.

He turns for her but is to late as young woman runs by with child in hand, she flees.

Running for her life and the one in her arms, She fights back tears as her legs start to burn, she can't stop. Wont stop. She has to find sanctuary.

There! A dark building ahead, she prays its abandoned as she enters, locking the door behind her. Its dark, the air is stale and cold.

She feels for a light switch on the wall. But then thinks twice about it, not wanting to give away their position.

What was that?! A sound in the room, what was it? Click. The room explodes with light, she'd found the switch just in time to see them.

Three of them hiding behind pillars on this high celling room. At first they are all still, her from the shock, them, from the light. She holds the child to her, not knowing what to do
.
There, on the ledge above her, a glimmer off something metal. Its to high to reach. She jumps, misses, they start to move closer. Her heart is pounding, her palm are sweating. But she's not infect, they are.

Putting down the child she jumps again and again as they draw near. There, she's got it. A knife , a butchers knife. Child in one arm, knife in hand. She holds her place.

They look hungry, they move closer still. She wont back down.

The closest one lunges at her so fast she almost didn't see it. But the knife, thank God that knife. Went right through the chest, and its foe falls to the ground.

Then the other two bound after her as she moves almost to quickly for one holding a child. Up the stair to the right, down the hall. The room on the end is open, she goes for it, throwing the door shut, locks it, backing into the corner and waits.

The child in her arms whimpers, she shushes her and prays this will not be their last night.

The window, YES, that's it! She looks out, a fire escape, they clime onto it. It creaks, she slips, the child crys out.

She grips the rail, child and knife not wanting to part with any. She climes down in what seems like forever.

They finally reach the ground and start to run. Using the shadows along the buildings to their advantage they make their way to the one place she knows will be safe.

A hotel just a few blocks away. Her lover is there, his friends and many more that can keep her safe are there. He'll be furious when he finds shes gone out into the night alone.

Walking across the street in front of Shawn's Hotel, illuminated by the flood lights around the building already feeling safer. With child in tow she approaches the armed guards outside the door.
She pauses just long enough for clearance, but is held up by the child, she must be checked and cleared for the virus or put to death.

A nurse comes for the child and takes her to be tested as the young women heads down the hall that will lead to her love.

Nearing his door she can hear the ruckus coming from inside. He must have guest.
She knocks, turns the nob and lets herself in just as her love is reaching for the door.

The already smile on his face turns into a toothy grin at the site of her. Without warning he grabs her up in a kiss and carries her across the hall into an empty bathroom and closes the door.

The passion in his kiss is electrifying. His grip smothering but welcomed. He traces the small of her back as he presses against her. Catching her breath and yearning for whats to come she gasps.

His eyes, they're red and wild, his tone is darker, grey. OH NO! He's infected! How can this be? She screams and run for the door, pulling it closed behind her. Holding it shut with all her might.

Screams

I wake up.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Longing

To know what its like to be loved by the one you most admire.
To be held by the one you couldn't imagin being without.
To work so hard and finally be rewarded
To be, just be.

To be content
To be happy
To no longer worry about so many little things
you know you can do nothing about.
To make it throu one day without being let down.

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY MORE
I'M GOING TO SCREAM
Because of the longing, OH, the longing...

to be free, to be whole, to be at peace with myself once more.
to dry my eyes and have them remain dry for just a little while.
to depend on someone who will come thru for you.
to lye and rest, and be thankful for the good and the bad.
Oooh!!!...

the longing.